blogging once again

I’m starting over…

I got too busy during the past 10 months. damn too busy I didn’t find the time to make any entry for this blog. Well, I just feel I need to write to keep myself busy. My life has been soooo boring. But I am beginning to love it that way. Maybe that’s one sign that I’m not so young anymore…

I just finished two big projects. That’s why I have too many idle times now. Well, I have lots of things in mind that I want to accomplish in the medium term. To lose 10 pounds in the next three months and to organize my portfolio so I could pack up and look for a higher paying job here opr abroad. (I prefer the latter although I still have a very serious dilemma about it).

My little boy is now a preschooler and he’s really doing well in school. He always got a star–something that I look forward to every night. The hubby can’t walk straight still although his right leg has improved a lot during the past six months after he fractured it during a Christmas Party last year.

And, oh… Mr. R texted me and asked me if it’s still ok to have coffee with him sometimes… I forgot to ask him when’s the best time to have coffee with him… but he joked about having coffee and more…?

It’s July… the rain has started to pour. I just love it!

I’m 31…officially

It’s my 31st birthday today… I’m having no birthday blues… I’m neither happy nor sad. But I have a few things in mind that I wanted to do for the next 31st years of my life. So I decided to post them here:

1.I’ll maintain a healthy weight of 105 pounds and the journey starts today. No dinner. no snacks
2. I will actively look for a new job… a job that will give me extra time for my kid and extra money for a house and a car
3. I’ll try to look prettiest everyday… no quick showers… just loooong baths
4. Brush my teeth 5 times a day
5. Forget about him… yeah that guy who made me nauseus and who manipulated me to believe things that are otherwise unbelievable… labo… corny… stupid… silly… GFY!!!
6. Enjoy the friendships being offered by people around me
7. Be happy and contented
8. Read more
9. Travel more
10. Do not expect anything from other people
11. Love my son. love my husband more.
12. Spend less think 6 times before buying something
13. Be more confident… avoid self criticisms…
Yeah I know i miss on some things but I could still add to this list in the future.

BLOATED

I have been overeating for the past two days. I need to stomp on the brakes… help… I really need to put a period on these series of unfortunate events. Not just overeating but indulging. It started with a heavy lunch at KFC Friday. Then 5 scoops of ice cream before going home that day. and then I ate sooo much on friday night and then came saturday morning, I ate heavy breakfast, heavy lunch, heavy PM snacks and heavy dinner. Went to megamall awhile ago. Bought a new pair of jeans, a new pair of slacks and two shirts from terra nova. And also a belt from SM. Yikes… I’ve been splurging not just on food but on shopping as well. Just stayed home saturday night with my son. My hubby has to attend a college reunion. No probs… . So I finished the cover letter that I promised JF to send and was able to beat my self-imposed deadline. I’m okay. not happy… not sad… no feelings at all… good to know though I have some new clothes.

But hey, I’ve noticed I’ve been spending a lot on clothes. Of course I’m two sizes down, it looks awkward wearing my old clothes. Need to maintain my new weight or else, sayang ang bagong clothes.

I’m sleepy already. I was hoping to get some YM messages from him. But guess he’s out or having a date? No probs

Also haven’t heard from RR since wednesday. wonder where he is. Hope he misses me On the other hand… wag na lang

Good things gonna come…

Aqualung? hehehe. Yeah been listening again to Aqualung. I have to think positive… I badly need to or else, paranoia’s gonna struck again and that’s the worst thing that could ever happen to me. The weather bureau said it’s gonna rain all day today beacause of a weather disturbance. I wonder why the sun is up. I must start acting normal. be happy girl

WEIRD weather…weird feeling… coffee, anyone?

It was hot inside my office. The barrometer said it was 25 degrees Celcius… and to think we have airconditioning system working in our room. I had to take off my jacket and work as if I was in a sweatshop…literally speaking. So I was shocked when I found out later (when I was about to leave work) that it was actually raining hard. So I had to go back again to my room to get a rain shield. I was still soooo sleepy i managed to take a nap while commuting back home. Luckily there was a maiz street vendor when I got off from the FX. So I bought a piece and ate it with my son when I got home. I was really hungry. I was able to finish it in less than 15 minutes. After that, I ate my dinner. just a few scoops of rice, fish and laing. And then I cooked adobo for the next day. By the way, I only had a bottle of Pepsi max and a truna sandwich (a leftover from my baon yesterday) at around 2 pm.

Hah! I think I badly need some rest. I must temporarily forget about the late night shift. f**k!

I’m soooo sleeeepy…

Wish I could stay a few more minutes in bed. but hell I can’t afford to do so. I have an important event today plus my officemate who’s been helping me organizing events like this is absent today. So I guess it’s a one man show, got no choice.

I still feel dazed and sleepy I couldn’t digest anything mentally and physically. I didn’t get enough sleep last night. I was in my so usual praning mode. I hate it that he has to go to work on a late shift. I couldn’t sleep… damn… i hate it really hate it!!!!

worked like a robot… had 3 cups of coffee.. Hah! I’m still dizzy. I really need to doze off. Glad that seminar was through. Glad I was able to endure the agonizing hours of just listening to some conspiracy theories about how the US managed to remain the world’s superpower. whatever… duh?! blah.. blah.. blah… scholarly discussions. Nice to think I learned something new today despite of the bad unpredictable weather and my aching head!

Bad thoughts can kill…

I think I should start thinking about something else… During the past 3 or 5 days I’ve been thinking so much about him… He doesn’t deserve to be in my thoughts at all. I’m wasting so much time and it’s clouding my mind. He’s a big joker. I hate him and I promise not to talk to him again in the next two centuries. It’s unhealthy. I don’t know how I should translate it into something positive. Actually, there’s another one. What should I do? Float… float… float… I hate this floating feeling… Btw, I miss the “another one…” I remember him saying about an aftertaste.. whatever.. .